She talks about the stresses after her controversial appointment to lead the Baltimore Symphony. ” ‘It was a very trying and stressful experience in many ways. To be perfectly honest, my initial reaction, when it all started, was to run: ‘Gosh, who needs this?’ She described a candid private meeting with the whole orchestra at Meyerhoff Symphony Hall, the orchestra’s home, before she appeared at a news conference on July 20. She wanted to look the musicians in the eye, she said, before signing the contract. She told the players she needed to get over her own hard feelings. By her account, she made it clear to them that she had already been hesitating about taking the job, given the orchestra’s large debt and poor attendance. At the same time, she praised the players as part of a gifted and deeply musical orchestra.”